Why a blog?

I give up, easily.
Anything. Everything.
Because of a lack of confidence.

People won't like me, laugh at me, think I'm stupid.
That is why my entire life I hid away, in dark clothes.
Black, dark blue or grey.
Anything to make me invisible.

I never used make-up in high school because I didn't know how.
My hair was always the same because I had no idea what to do with it (ponytail, tightly pulled back, in case you're curious).

When I was 18 I got married and I wanted a change.
I wanted the real me to come out.
But I still had no clue how.

At 26 I started this blog.
So that I wouldn't give up, wouldn't forget where I was going.

This is my journey, feel free to walk it with me, every step of the way.
All my failures, all my mistakes.
But also my winnings, my happy moments and my bliss.
I'll be honored to have you with me.


Make-upPosted by Fashiondisaster Thu, June 05, 2014 14:51:12
The eyes are the window to the soul.
So I'm told.

When putting on make-up,
I want them to "pop" out.
Not out of my head,
But most of the time they do.
Pop out of my head.
And not in a good way...

Am I the only one struggeling?

It's morning.
You just woke up.
You still have that nasty taste in your mouth.

You walk to the bathroom.

Hurrying to get some clothes on.

After that,
You face the mirror.

You look pale.
Burned out.

You feel sleepy.
A headache.

And then you have to apply your make-up.
With that feeling.

Why does the day start so early?
I'm so much better at make-up at noon.
I know.
I've tried.

Back to the eyes.

With sleepy eyes,
You have to make a wing.
A black wing.
With eyeliner.

Both wings,
On both eyes,
Have to look the same.

Are you feeling me?

Every morning I end up,
Smearing eyeliner everywhere.
Taken to much off.
With cottonsticks.
Applying again.

Then, the left wing is higher then the right wing.
My fingers get smudged.
It's absolute hell.


When they are sort of even.
I realise they don't make my eyes "pop".
In fact,
They look smaller.

What's up with that?
Google it.
Try a different wing.
One that is right for your "eye type" (my what?)

Apparantly we have categories.
Eyes too far apart.
Eyes too close together.
Big eyes.
Small eyes.
Droopy eyes (no kidding)

No idea what mine is.
So I just smudge up a big heap of mascara.
And pray that nobody notices.
My crooked wings.
My small eyes.
And my broken window to the soul...

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Red nails

Make-upPosted by Fashiondisaster Mon, March 17, 2014 10:21:26
I love red nails.
I like painted nails in general.
Not the false kind.

Sorry for all the people that wear them but it's just not my cup of tea.
But if you like it, wear it.

Red nails make me feel sexy.
They put a little twist to my boyisch personality.
It's like the woman in me comes out trough my nails.

That sounds weird...
But you know what I mean, right..?

Painted nails make you look cared for.
It's a sign that you like yourself.
You took the efford.

And that's just my problem.
The efford.

My nails are painted right now.
I did them yesterday.
And they are already chipped.
And I am gutted.

It's such a plague.
You spent time painting them and drying them.
Then you do that again (yes, with every nailpolish, you have to paint your nails twice)

When you are a real pro you can even use a base coat.
And a finishing coat.

Not me.
Two layers is more then enough for me.

Only to take it off again two days later because all the polish is chipped...

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The right wing

Make-upPosted by Fashiondisaster Sun, November 17, 2013 13:22:25
I'm not a morning person.
Really. I'm not.

I love my bed and I hate leaving it before 10 am.
I also like to stay up late (my inspiration comes in the evening, and so does my energy), so that's a bad combo...

In the morning, you won't find me a very interesting person, I don't talk much and I am very grumpy.

The one thing that really gets me cursing tough, are my wings.
Nope, not my angel wings.
The wings on my eyes.
With eyeliner.
That never does what I want it to do.

You know what I'm talking about, right?

Either they are too thin.
Or too thick.
Or they get smudged.

Then you have to fix it with cotton sticks (oh, the joy), while you do that you, of course, smudge your mascara and take away half the make-up you had already used for your eyes.
And after all that misery I, mostly, look like a panda.

This was after a bath, but it comes close... (Embarrassing... but I did promise to show you my mistakes so...)

It's only since a few weeks that I am really determined to get "my wings" right (I am trying for months but it didn't mean to me as much as it does now).
Before I didn't bother and settled for mascara alone, like this:

I had seen so many youtube vids and descriptions of how it should look that I really felt discouraged (and clumsy).
Knowing that the internet is swamped with pictures like this:

You can't really blame me, right..?

When I found this joke it made me think of myself:

But, like with all things in life, I found out that the key is practice (sounds lame, right?).
It's like riding a bike (cliché...), really, the more you try, the more you learn.

At the moment I use a brush (a small one), from H&M (about 2,95 euros) and draw the line first with regular make-up, if the line is wrong it is easy to erase it.
If it is the way I want it, I go over it with the real eyeliner.
I mostly use a pencil, not a liquid, because I find liquids harder to control but they do give a better result (if you can handle them).

I'd love to see all of your wings so please, feel free to comment :)
In the meantime I'll keep practicing, promise!

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Make-upPosted by Fashiondisaster Thu, April 04, 2013 16:05:16

A few days ago I got a free sample from the new Chanel mascara, I decided to compare it to a few other mascara’s in different price ranges.

I went with:

One from Essence, price 3,99 euro

One from L'oreal, price 9,99 euro

One from Maybelline, prive: 15,99 euro

And the free sample Le volume de Chanel, normal cost: 30,50 euro


* does as promised and stays

* little volume, even with four layers

* empty very fast


* very big and long lashes but doesn't last, after 15 minutes it's like they shrink back

* very dark mascara

* need at least two layers

* nice feel, doesn't stick

* give clumps when eyelashes aren't completely clean


* had big hopes for this one, the cat eye effect and panther spots seduced me

* gives big and full lashes after two layers

* lasts long

* you still need good eyeliner skills to get the real cat effect

* clumps when lashes aren't completly clean


* fell in love

* big and full lashes

* very black

* lasts long

* no clumps

As you can see you can still get a free sample, try it out and be amazed, I absolutly love it.

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Make - up

Make-upPosted by Fashiondisaster Sat, August 25, 2012 17:24:53
I noticed that my subject map on make-up was still blank and thought it was time for some action in there! Although I have to warn you that my routine is very simple in that area... When I was younger I experimented a lot with it but never got it right until my husband arranged a make-upsession with someone from YSL for my birthday.

He explained to me that eyeliner beneath your eyes pulls them down and makes you look tired, only a few people can pull it off to wear eyeliner only beneath the eye, most of us have to balance it out by wearing it on the lid of the eye as well. The other important thing that I learned is that using foundation (and in the right color tone for your skin) is very important, I am very pale and need a very light one but there are so many on the market that I've tried out a lot of them and the feeling always gave me goosebumps... It was too "present", in other words, I could always feel that I was wearing make-up and I hated that feeling because it made me feel fake.

But I found the solution in a BB cream from Garnier, what the real difference is (talking about ingredients) I'm not able to tell you but I can tell you that it feels natural. You put it on and it looks like it brings out the best of your skin and face. I really love this product and when I put it on, I don't need much more to look good. It doesn't really solve the bags under my eyes but I am still looking for a product for that, I've tried concealer but somehow it doesn't work for me, maybe I'm using it wrong?

Anyway, after the BB cream, I just put on a bit of blush (long search for finding the right color as well!), for me, the best is a mix of colors, the one I bought from YSL a few years ago was the best I ever had but they don't make them anymore and I now found a cheap alternative in one from a simple drugstore.

For my eyes I use a make-up base coat so it lasts longer, I use cheap make-up and it doesn't stay on very long without it... I put on a bit of eyeshadow, in a light beige and I draw a dark bleu line for eyeliner. I was always terrible with eyeliner and tried everything, anyone you can think of, I basically tried it... The best way, for me, is with an eye pencil, with the flat side, and then putting on a bit of eye powder in the color you like and draw a line, so easy and looks great, very easy to correct if your line is a bit crooked as well.

Then a lot of mascara, a bit of lipgloss and I'm ready!

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