Why a blog?

I give up, easily.
Anything. Everything.
Because of a lack of confidence.

People won't like me, laugh at me, think I'm stupid.
That is why my entire life I hid away, in dark clothes.
Black, dark blue or grey.
Anything to make me invisible.

I never used make-up in high school because I didn't know how.
My hair was always the same because I had no idea what to do with it (ponytail, tightly pulled back, in case you're curious).

When I was 18 I got married and I wanted a change.
I wanted the real me to come out.
But I still had no clue how.

At 26 I started this blog.
So that I wouldn't give up, wouldn't forget where I was going.

This is my journey, feel free to walk it with me, every step of the way.
All my failures, all my mistakes.
But also my winnings, my happy moments and my bliss.
I'll be honored to have you with me.

I hate the moon

PersonalPosted by Fashiondisaster Sun, November 13, 2016 14:20:58
Not really,
Just at the moment.

It's some kind of supermoon now,
And it's making sure,
We all feel emotional,
Going from crying to laughing,
And right back.

It's a moon,
That is supposed to make us able,
To let go of things we don't need anymore,
Whether it's stuff in our home,
Our things from the past,
That still linger in our system,
And don't serve us anymore.

I don't know about you,
But this moon is pulling all my strings,
My emotions,
And soul look drained,
Like I'm completely empty,
And it won't get filled up very soon.

I've been clinging to my husband,
Like a small kitty cat,
Looking for comfort,
And love,
And I don't even know why,
And at the same time,
A few moments after,
I can snap,
And bite his head off,
Not literally,
But you know what I mean.

The good news,
Being sarcastically,
Is that it will last till the end of the year,
Two more months,
Of feeling it all,
I'm so happy,

When it passes,
I'm sure,
I will appreciate it,
The things I left behind,
The new beginnings,
And all that,
But at the moment I can barely lift myself into my bath,
And I love taking baths,
But my body just doesn't seem to be up for it.

Maybe we should see this,
As a time of self-care,
Focusing on ourselves,
Being a bit selfish,
Saying "no" more,
To things we don't want to do.

In a way,
That does make me feel a bit better,
Putting myself first,
Not work,
Not the household,
But ourselves.

Regaining energy,
For the new year,
Finally doing the things we want to do,
And just making it happen.

Thanks moon,
That was a great insight,
Can I have my body and soul back,

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