Why a blog?

I give up, easily.
Anything. Everything.
Because of a lack of confidence.

People won't like me, laugh at me, think I'm stupid.
That is why my entire life I hid away, in dark clothes.
Black, dark blue or grey.
Anything to make me invisible.

I never used make-up in high school because I didn't know how.
My hair was always the same because I had no idea what to do with it (ponytail, tightly pulled back, in case you're curious).

When I was 18 I got married and I wanted a change.
I wanted the real me to come out.
But I still had no clue how.

At 26 I started this blog.
So that I wouldn't give up, wouldn't forget where I was going.

This is my journey, feel free to walk it with me, every step of the way.
All my failures, all my mistakes.
But also my winnings, my happy moments and my bliss.
I'll be honored to have you with me.

New York

PersonalPosted by Fashiondisaster Fri, January 06, 2017 12:09:46
This city,
The buzz,
The creativity,
It has a place in my heart,
My soul,
And my dreams.

Because my love,
Is from a distance,
I've never been there,
Never actually seen it.

In my mind,
I can walk on Times Square,
Without hesitation,
I can see the big lights,
The commercial screens.

I can feel the vibes,
In my bones,
The energy,
Racing trough me.

And it astounds me,
What the mind can do,
What a dream,
In your heart can do.

The dream has been there,
For years,
I've gotta see it,
One day,
It will happen.

I will stand there,
Probably tears in my eyes,
Knowing that I finally made it,
It will feel like coming home,
Seeing the statue of liberty,
The green woman,
Guiding me,
To a place,
That even tough I've never been there,
Feels like a second home.

The Brooklyn bridge,
Central Park,
It's gotta be amazing,
The concrete jungle,
With a green heart,
The hot-dog stands,
Where I will eat until I throw up,
Maybe not,
But you know what I mean.

This year,
For the first time,
I have the feeling,
That it will work,
That it will come true.

I don't know how,
Don't know why,
But it feels good,
And I love that feeling,
So I decided to trust it,
Let it guide me,
And just assume,
That it will all work out.

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